XXVII

To occupy your mouth; to provide taste — don’t chew sugar-free gum or munch celery. Eat something you don’t like the taste of. A taste that lingers.

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XXVI

And you are still disgusting! Oh, forget summer. You weren’t going to prance about in a swimsuit anyway. That’s not the point. The point is that another season’s past and you’ve wasted another slice of your life being fat.
You want to wear this sort of thing (if you borrowed someone else’s arms)

—but is there really [...]

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XXV

The secret of buying health food is not to. All the calories in a range of low-cal foods make a calorie mountain. When every weight-loss company tries to sell you chocolate chip fudge ice creams even you can work out that their business model is to ensure their diet products don’t work. Are you going [...]

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XXIV

Yet bingeing isn’t really something you’ve been doing that much recently. Except yesterday, and the day before. And before. Bingeing really can make you dislike food, so that fasting isn’t a burden—but it can also make you binge repeatedly, as your stomach stretches to push out your belly and your fat cells expand. ‘Food!’ your [...]

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XXIII

Bulimia—when a trace of a menstrual period is horrifying, not a relief. Your bingeing has been catching up with you.

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XXII

When a highlight of your planned shopping day is focused around eating, being allowed to eat because you can’t stick to your miso soup routine on a bus, the mesmerising blissful walk around the supermarket, where you plan every tiny bite based on detailed knowledge of the shelves and you know you’ll end up binging [...]

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XXI

“Nothing tastes as good as being thin feels.”
—the ana sites

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